Sekuat Hatimu by Last Child

A song from Indonesian band, Last Child, which dedicated for all mothers in the world. The lyrics contain many awaken words, especially for me. It really reminds me about, how my mom always gave her best for me.

Mom was always proud of me, and strengthened my heart by telling to everyone that I am a very good person, though in real, I am not that good at all.

The Original Lyrics in Bahasa Indonesia

Last Child – Sekuat Hatimu

Ku mohon hentikan air matamu mama,
bila ternyata harus putus sekolahku.
Dan ku pilih gaya hidup yang tiada,
pernah indah di matamu.

Tak mampu ku mengampuni diriku mama,
bila ku cerna harunya arti doamu.
Yang kau panjatkan untukku saat ku bawa diriku,
semakin dalam ku terjatuh.

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Bila ku tak pernah sanggup untuk bangkit dari,
kegagalan yang tak seharusnya kau sesali.
Karna kenyataan hidup yang aku jalani,
tak seindah saat ku dengar engkau bernyanyi.

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Peluklah lelah jiwaku mama!
Yang terluka dipecundangi dunia.
Hanya kasihmu yang mampu lindungi lemah hatiku,
yang tak sekuat hatimu.

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Peluk hati kecil yang penuh dendam ini!
Ajari ku menghapus sebuah rasa benci!
Biarkan kasih lembutmu sentuh hatiku!
Ubah aku jadi buah hati yang dulu...!!

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The Lyrics Translated in English

Last Child – As Strong As Your Heart

Please stop your tears mama,
if turns out I should break up from school.
And I choose a lifestyle that never,
ever looked beautiful in your eyes.

I cannot forgive myself mama,
when I sensed every moving words inside your pray.
The one that you sent it to me when I took myself,
to let it fell deeper.

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If I never able to awake from,
failures that you should not be regretted.
Because the fact of life that I live,
was not as beautiful as when I heard you sang.

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Hug my tired soul mama!
That injured manipulated by the world.
Only your love was able to protect my weak heart,
which was not as strong as your heart.

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Hug this small heart that full of vengeance!
Teach me to erase a hatred!
Let your love touched my heart!
Change me to become your once baby!

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I love you mama..

Cat's in The Cradle

A fruit fell never far from its tree. An original song from Harry Chapin that sung again by Ugly Kid Joe really reminds me. Ugly Kid Joe is one of my favorite band when I was a teenage. If you are a father and have a son, perhaps you should read below lyric from the song Cats in The Cradle by Ugly Kid Joe.

My child arrived just the other day.
Came to the world in the usual way.
But there were planes to catch and bills to pay.
He learned to walk while I was away.
He was talking before I knew it.
And as he grew, he said, I'm gonna be like you, Dad. You know I'm gonna be like you.

Chorus:
And the cats in the cradle, and the silver spoon.
Little boy blue, and the man in the moon.
When you coming home?
Son, I don't know when, we'll get together then. You know we'll have a lot of good time then.

Well, my son turned ten just the other day.
He said, Thanks for the ball, Dad.
Come on! Lets play!
Could you teach me to throw?,
I said, Not today, I got a lot to do.
He said, That's okay!
And he walked away, and he smiled, and he said,
You know, I'm gonna be like him, yeah. You know, I'm gonna be like him.

Chorus

Well, he came from college just the other day.
So much like a man, I just had to say,
I'm proud of you. Could you sit for a while?
He shook his head, and he said with a smile,
What I'd really like, Dad, is to borrow the car keys. See you later! Can I have them please?

Chorus

I've long since retired, my son's moved away.
I called him up just the other day.
I'd like to see if you don't mind.
He said, I'd love to, Dad, if I could find the time. You see my new job's a hassle, and the kids have the flu, But it's sure nice talkin to you, Dad. It's been sure nice talkin to you.
And as I hung up the phone, it occurred to me. He'd grown up just like me.
My boy was just like me.

Chorus 2x

What we can learn from the lyric, is to appreciate on what we have got. Our most valuable treasure! Your son in this case. If you are a father, you must love your son more than your love to your daughter, and pay more attention to your daughter's manner than to your son! What do you think then?

How to Say I'm Sorry

Just like a song lyrics by Chicago - Hard To Say I'm Sorry. Saying the word sorry is the hardest thing to do. Conversely, if saying the word sorry is so easily for you, and then the same mistake you would have done. Don't you?

To Forgive is To Forget

The point is, if we make a mistake and apologized, people who accept our apology, do not be so quick on willing to forgive us. Due to forgeting the mistakes of others is not that easy. And so do we..

We will not be easy to forget someone's fault, even though that person has already apologized. That mistake will remain to be a scar in our hearts. Although that was not entirely his/her fault, but for the sake of a long established relationship, he/she is willing to be the first to apologize.

Your Mouth is Your Tiger

Our words often hurt others. We've done it without us knowing it. A matter that for us is just a joke for fun, means the opposite way for others. And the worst is, if you said it to make fun of him/her in front of so many people. He/she will consider it to be bullying by you.

Now!! Put yourself as the victim of bullying. How do you feel? What do you do, if you've been treated that way? And, what do you expect from them to make you feel better? I guess, that makes you feel more guilty! But if you don't? You must see a shrink!!

Writing is Sharper than Words

An expression of anger through writing is more painful than the spoken words. Despite of hearing nothing, by the time we are reading it, our brain will immediately distribute it into the deepest of our hearts.

It is different from when we are listening. We still manage to filter out those phrases by our ears. Our brains will still be able to control those words, and not to be distributed directly into our hearts.

Finally, important thing that we must do is, to look deep into ourself, an introspection. Have I been forgiven myself? If we have already been forgiven ourselves for all our mistakes, then we might be able to say sorry, an honest apology.

Frustrated Inc.

Let Your Dim Light Shine album by Soul Asylum

Misery, everyone must have felt, at least once in a lifetime. I wrote this post after listening to the song from Soul Asylum - Misery. By being such thing, often made someone so desperated to keep on continuing to do anything. Have no desire on anything. Life's so boring.

Actually, it was you, the one who made your own misery. Broken heart? Does it make your life misery? No, it was not. You are the one who thinks your life would be miserable after being dump by your lover. Life is not that short. You should remember this.

A drop of mother's tear is worth than a cup of lover's tear

Does your mother cry to see you were being dump by your ex? Then why should you cry? Does your mother feel sad to see you sad? Well. She must have been. But enough is enough, sad for today is only for today. There are many beautiful lifes await you for tomorrow.

I read about the news lately, there was a couple of boy and girl who celebrated Valentine moment, ended with a suicide done by the boy. The boy's friend had already noticed that he was going to kill himself and his girlfriend on the Valentine's Day. Valentine's Day is a death day, said the boy to his friend, on the day before he found hang himself on the wood, next to his girlfriend body lying on the ground, with severe injuries found on her neck.

Desperate people really have no standpoint! As said by Soul Asylum on the song lyric, ..we created the cure, we made the disease.. So, it was you who can cure yourself, not your mom or even your shrink. Talk to someone would be better. It will reduced the heavy burdent that you are carrying.

Make yourself busier is another way to help you forget your misery. But before doing that, you must forgive yourself! You cannot forget anything without forgiving yourself. No matter if you are right or wrong, the very first thing to do is to forgive yourself.

Have a nice weekend!!

Techno House Music vs Symphonic Black Metal

女神 & 天使
Malang, East Java, Indonesia. Dec 26, 2009.

I had an experience with both of my children when they were still in the womb of my wife. Many articles say that classical music can help infants during brain development in the womb. But what I've done was very different.

On my wife's first pregnancy, ranging in age from 4 months of pregnancy, I always play the songs from Theatre Of Tragedy, from album Aegis before bed. I created a CD player alarm to wake up with the same song. Track 1 of Aegis album titled Cassandra is the wake up alarm. This happened until my daughter was born.

Cassandra track from Theatre of Tragedy becomes our (my wife and I) favorite song. My wife did not really fond of a type of song like symphonic black metal before. After my daughter was born, I never play that song again. Cause my baby daughter was not fond of it after she was born.

Same as before, when my wife was pregnant with her second, from the age of 5 months of pregnancy, as always I play songs before bed. This time from the album Elements of Life by Tiësto. My little daughter were never felt disturb with the song while she were sleeping. This happens until my son were born.

What happened then??

After 4 years later, I found nearly the same character on both of them. My daughter was rampart, selfish and own way. Vice versa with her younger brother. What differs is the level of maturity. My son is more easily made to understand and want to give in than her sister. Despite of their age difference is only 20 months, my daughter never budge on her brother.

I always give understanding to both of them that they had to share each other. When my daughter was 4 years old, I never bought special toys for girl. But I always bought a toy that can be played together, in hoping that they can share.

But that is not true a year later. When both my children have their own favorite toys. My daughter prefers to play Barbie dolls and then my son loves Thomas The Train Engine toys. But still, they are still exchanging their toys. Let see what will happen to my children in the next 5 years.